Not Feeling Super.
movies June 29th. 2006, 7:44pmI just got back from my second superhero movie that I’ve seen at the theater this week. Earlier I went to see X-Men 3: The Last Stand, and today I watched Superman Returns. I liked both of the movies, but I think Superman Returns was a much better film. The timeless modern yet still retro look of Metropolis was really well done. Without ruining the storyline, I liked the changes they made to the Lois/Clark/Superman relationship. Also, Kevin Spacy was a really good villian, and Parker Posey played a great hench woman.
I haven’t seen a movie in a theater in months, and now I go to two in the same genre in the same week. This might be because these are the first movies I’ve been interested in for a long time. I didn’t even want to see X-men until I was bored a few days ago and didn’t have anything better to do. When I found out that Superman was playing I was excited to see it even though I hadn’t been following anything about it. These days I don’t have the time to worry about movies anymore. This is a big change for me, as one of my hobbies in college was watching almost everything good and bad that was released in the theater. Now I simply don’t have the time or energy to follow movies. Plus, unless it’s around award season, nearly everything has been awful these past few years.
Part of the reason I’ve been going to see so many superhero movies, at least subconsciously, is that these days I’m not feeling too super myself. I had so much stress I went to the hospital for it. I sit around packing up my belongings all day, cleaning up after the dog, and spending too much time online. I spent nearly everything I’ve earned in the past few years renting a new apartment, and I don’t have a job now to start earning back all I’ve spent. The place I applied for, and really want to work at, has yet to call me back. My trip to the United States is in a week and I still don’t know what I’ll be doing for the majority of the time. The stress of all my responsibilities is starting to take its toll on all aspects of my life. I’m short tempered, often alone, and irritable to others.
I hope some time away from Korea to recover will set me on the right track. I’m not sure it’s unemployment that’s got me down or just a convergence of many other things that were all ill timed.
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June 29th, 2006 at 10:14 pm
When I was unemployed/underemployed, I was pretty depressed. I didn’t go to the hospital, but then again I wasn’t moving at the same time. Also, since I was living at home, there was little chance that if I went totally broke I’d be on the street…in another country…with a wife, and a dog. So I can see why you’d be stressed. Most American men place a high degree of importance on work. It ties into the whole purpose in life/provider for family/self-worth complex we’re socialized in. Once I started working full time I felt much, much better. Hopefully that school will call you back with an offer.
June 30th, 2006 at 10:20 am
I’m not the person worrying about money most, let’s put it that way, but I do feel an obligation to provide for my family and work. It’s not that work is my life, but it does give me something to do and take pride in. I’ve self-identified as a teacher, and that’s what I do now. When I’m not working, I have less things to do and talk about. Also, I feel my career has progressed each time I’ve gone to a new school, and I’m afraid of “taking a step backwards”.
If I get the job, or an offer, at the next location, I’ll be elated, and 90% of all my sources of stress will disappear.
June 30th, 2006 at 3:04 pm
Looks like I’m not going to get that job. The search continues!