Two articles, I ironically found on the Internet, basically explain how I’ve been feeling recently about the Internet in general. I can probably blame my “always on, always available, always checking” needs on dopamine levels in my brain. Close to a year ago I listened to a Radiolab podcast about how trying to make sense of random systems can lead to a rewiring of the predictive nature of the brain. The delayed response of dopamine, and a general rewiring of the brain. It was fascinating to think that the expectation of reward was that powerful. I don’t have any gambling urges, and I dislike games of chance with money stakes, but the reward systems in the brain are powerful things.
For example, I’ve been known to haunt reddit these days. While it might be a internet hose running at high pressure, blasting news in your face, it’s also got a reward system in place to keep you hooked on the site. There is a Karma counter for submitting helpful information or good links. You can earn achievements for accomplishing certain feats that enrich the site. When you have a reply to your message, you get special mail. It’s designed to create a longing to contribute and build, to share and receive rewards. It also moves fast. From day to day there might be a few dozen interesting articles, or new things to learn, funny pictures, programs, lesson ideas, or things to check out. The content is “self-selecting” to a degree. If you check the things with the best scores, you’ll likely find the most interesting things. If you have more time, you can even spot trending articles that will start to rise in popularity in the future.
It’s weird to describe the feeling of being the first to know stuff constantly. The desire to be “in the know” is a powerful urge in me. I think it stems from being an outsider in school. Since I lived far in the countryside, I was always the last to find out about trending topics, and the last to be able to get in on a fad. While that fickle stuff in school was probably best left forgotten, it did give me a push to always try to discover things before other people. I’m not talking about the possessive, hipster, “I liked that before you, so I am better than you” sort of bullshit. I’m talking about being able to form a coherent opinion about something and be able to speak about it when asked. Websites that reward and are built around that behavior are powerful to me.
Reddit has become such a brain suck that the other person in the office that is addicted to the site and I share an extreme shorthand lingo now. “Did you see…yah. What’d you think about the…oh, yeah, saw that already.” No one else in the office will have any idea what is going on as we chat through some of the topics we read earlier. In a few days when the information goes mainstream, we’ve already seen, discussed, and moved on from it.
I’ve also read about how the Internet literally rewires your brain. You take in new, novel, easy to understand information, but little of it goes into your long term memory. You also move on from things more quickly. The Internet destroys long term attention spans, and pushes your brain to deal with information overload. I know I’ve been feeling that for a while now. Twitter, Reddit, and the short bursts of communication I have are all destroying my attention span. If I leave a Twitter client open, I’ll just get bothered by the constant chatter as people tweet about their day or something clever. I’ve broken down my news feeds into short lists of twenty to thirty people. I check to see what they are up to once a day. Before I did that, Twitter was insane.
If nothing is interesting on Twitter, I’ll hit up reddit in the morning. If reddit isn’t moving fast enough to keep me busy before class, I’ll check a forum. If there isn’t anything going on in my D&D game, I might listen to a podcast. If I’ve burned through all my podcasts, I’ll listen to some comedy. If I go home, I’ll be updating my site, checking my rss news feeds, spend some time watching something interesting, then go to bed. I make conversation, and I don’t multi-task when I talk to people, but that’s just because I know how annoying it is when people do that to me. If we have a family function, or something I need to engage in, I will withdraw from the Internet and participate. Of course, it’s still always accessible in my pocket. I’d rather be talking to people that are in the same physical room, if they have something worth talking about, but depending on my schedule and my workload I might be in the office a few hours with different people. Not everyone is in the office to chat. If people need to get work done, I’ll just chill out and see what’s new.
I can still read books and watch long television shows without distraction because there are no ads during the shows I watch here. I haven’t been able to find the time to read a dead tree novel in quite some time. I still can’t watch MTV like rapid fire editing without being distracted, but recently I feel like my attention to intricate rules and fine planning have been suffering. If I don’t block out time to minimize distractions, I can’t get anything done. I’ve recently started to notice this about myself, and instead of doubling down, I’ll just walk away.
When I reach the point of Internet burnout, I’ve been trying to break the cycle of endlessly checking for new updates. Sometimes you just “finish” the Internet for the day. No more dopamine spikes. No more information is going to be processed. Since it’s been nice outside, I’ve started taking walks around campus. When I am at home, I walk the dog or do the dishes, even if I don’t need to right away. Anything that gets me away from the constant casino gambling of the “upvote” and the “karma point”.
If I didn’t have the practice of long form writing (relatively speaking) on my website, I’d probably be a dribbling idiot with an even lower, more atrophied vocabulary than now. The Internet rewards, the Internet takes away. Having the Internet accessible anywhere, anytime has a profound affect on you. When I first read Snow Crash (and it did change my life, I freaking LOVE that book), I thought the concept of a gargoyle was awesome. The closer I get to being able to access everything anywhere, the more doubts I start to have about how the rest of society will be able to deal with this trend. I’ve got reddit in my pocket, tweets on my phone, and podcasts in my ears. Short of eating and breathing the Internet, I’m about as wired as I need to be. One of the reasons I love Korea is the super fast access to the Internet. Getting online anywhere else simply doesn’t provide the same “fix” fast enough.
If I can recognize the change this always-on access has on my brain, what will my daughter’s world of “always-on has always been” be like? My wife is not nearly as connected as I am. I hope that trend continues. Perhaps Glow can learn to moderate herself better than I have in the past year.